I dreamed of a wedding of elaborate elegance; a scene filled with flowers and friends. I asked him what kind of wedding he wished for; he said one that would make me his wife.
Hi, my name is Stephanie and I have a problem with making commitments.

There, I said it!

About 7 or 8 months ago I decided that I was going to run the Chevron Houston 1/2 Marathon.  I was excited and totally motivated.  I was sticking with running.  I was running at least 3 times a week...consistently. Then something happened.  I got married on November 7.  Right in the prime of my training.  Yah, yah.  What an excuse right?  I know it really shouldn't be an excuse because I should have known better than to try and train for a 1/2 marathon and plan a wedding, right?  Wrong. I tried.  The thing is, I didn't complete it.  I didn't even try running it. I think I did the right thing by not going out there and overdoing it and hurting myself, but I've honestly been having a really rough time dealing with the fact that I didn't do it.

How embarrassing.

I told tons of people what my plan was! Ugh.  I just can't help but want to dig a hole and climb in it until people forget.  You see, I've always been athletic.  There was never an issue there, but once I quit soccer in college I lost that part of my life.  I CRAVE that part of myself.  The incredible self-confidence.  Motivation.  The challenge. All of it. It's gone.  Have I lost anyone yet? I know I am jumping around a lot. Sorry.

The point is, I made a plan and I didn't follow through with it and I am really hating myself for it. I c.a.n.n.o.t. LET IT GO! It's really affecting my mood because I feel like a failure to myself and others and my self confidence has plummeted.

I need to do something. 

So what did I do?  I went and made ANOTHER plan.  Sheesh. Really? Yah, really.

Here it goes. 

(Click to enlarge!)

There it is!

I start Monday, February 1.  This plan is SEVEN weeks and guess what! As luck would have it, at the end of the 7 week mark there is a race in Houston.  March 20, 2010.  I am racing a 5k.


Ask me how it's going. What I did the day before.  What I am doing that day.  Why did I not run....

I need to do this for myself, but I need others to be accountable to. 

So, who's gonna help? Who is going to hold me accountable?

More importantly....who wants to train and run the race with me?

I have to do this for myself.


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3 Responses
  1. Stephanie Says:

    Yay for your first 5K! I hope my running plan helps you as much as it helped me! You will do GREAT!!!

  2. Lara Says:

    Man! Do I wish you lived here!! I was just thinking yesterday how I wished I had someone to train/exercise with and hold me accountable. It's just not the same when you can't train/workout physically with someone (at least for me it's not). I may follow your plan (sounds reasonable), but I'm not sure I can run the race :)

    Good luck! I will hold you accountable!

  3. Jeni Says:

    I would, but that's the beginning of our spring break and we're planning to go to Boston :)

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